J-me ok now im fucking pissed off beyond all reason! frist you started being a bitch and claiming i wasnt your real friends b/c i was ok with you moving away....and before that you always told me not to date this person and not to do this...i was ok with it until now b/c i thought it was friendly advice from a freidn...but now i realize otherwise! when me and matt were going really staedy and hitting it off great he asked me back out...you told me not to go back out with him..that he wasnt worth any of ours time of day...you evn yelled at me b/c i was seriously considering it! now you are going back out with him...wtf is that about? you are seriously proving me wrong about being my best friend the past few weeks. i am really sorry i ever became your friend at this point. and i have more to say so dont think that youre getting off easy...

and Matt....you lied to me once again and for that our friendship is forever revolked. i hate that i always trust you and you always betray that trust. you lie to me so much its pathetic...and i honestly want nothing ot do with you anymore from thispoint on....its useless! everytime i befriend i end up hurting because of it..mentally and physically and this time is the last..no more will i bleed and tear for your cause. i will try and make new friends or i will just go back to the old mazzie..the lonely suicidal heartbroken scared mazzie.

stefanie...your friendship ironically has been the best the last week, even though you havepissed me off a little bit. you know the whole you having to be on top and you doing evberything iun your power to be there...yeah that sorda pissed me off a little bit the otehr week but that is nothing compared to what matt and j-me have committed upon me in the last few days. we need to talk in order to strengthen our friendship but other then that we're good. thanks for that, i feel like you of all people i can actually trust..because you have done some pretty fucked up shit to me but you have never crossed the line that j-me and matt seemed to leap the fuck over. i love you chik

buddha...you are still one of my best friends and have done nothing wrong to make me think otherwise..well not really. but could you do me a favor and watch what you say to people about us..because our inside jokes may be taken another way by other people and i dont want an image i dont deserve. thank you..xoxo


well this is pretty much it..although i do have some more to say relating to the issues here but i need to calm my mind before i wind up turning into the old me. well ttfn...but expect more